Cliche but I'm feeling 22

Now that my birthday weekend has come to and end I have time to share my most memorable and amazing stories with you all. Well to those that read my posts, Friday was my 22nd birthday and this year out did every birthday in my past. I got ready to go out to dinner with my boyfriend and when he came home he had told me there is no dinner but in fact he planned a party for me. Knock after knock at the door friends from Toronto came and even friends from cambridge/kitchener came. I was overly emotional that my anxiety level were threw threw the roof. I have never in my life had a surprise party planned for me and it was the best experiance in history. To know so many people love you enough to keep a secret of greatness from you means so much, because in the end they all came together in one room and celebrated my birthday. I couldn't  ask for a better day and a better boyfriend.

Saturday my family came over to celebrate my birthday which was very loud, enjoyable, and memorable. I love having my family over in one room it calls for great memories and laughs.

The amount of love I felt this weekend made realize how many great people I have in my life. Thank you everyone for sticking by me threw this year of moving and transition in my life. I am so blessed with all of you in my life.

Student life at its finest.

Sometimes I think to myself why did I go back to school? And than I have my inner conscious saying to get a good job that you love in the future DUH !
 I should be grateful to even get the opportunity and chance to afford an education, but I'm finding it hard to repeat this in my head while I'm reading a paper and writing an essay. Sometimes we just get so caught up in the overwhelming path of life we forget how fortunate we are to have what we have.

But really.. don't you ever just find it so hard to focus on that goal when so many obstacles present themselves to you when trying to reach that future degree. Well I am in the that Plato in my education, I am finding it more then hard to remind myself that it will pay off one day and that I have to keep on hoping in order to succeed in what I want. I know that this is the place for me and wheat I want as a career but I'm finding it so hard to see the shore line when I am so far back out in the sea. Exams re coming quicker then expected, can you believe that we are so close to Christmas break already? Like I mean look at this in about 50 days Christmas will be here and then I'm off to my second semester of school. I feel like it was just yesterday I was back to school shopping and actually thrilled to be in school. Not to say I'm not thrilled to be in school now but I am finding it hard to enjoy it when I have three essays and one major assignment worth 45 percent of my mark on the line.

Where is my motivational push, life? That nudge that  I need to know it will be okay and that I am going to make it to fourth year and get that degree my family and I have been dreaming about? 

Got to kick my butt into gear and know there is a shred line and light at the end of the tunnel may take awhile to see it but I know its there somewhere.

Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who can shut the world out and just focus on school, I am sure I can be that way and I'm just choosing not to be.

OHH BRAIN WHY CANT YOU WORK IN MY FAVOR ?!

Signs

Last night I went to a fabulous reaturant  in downtown  toronto called Signs. It's a place where most of the staff is deaf, it's a place so that guests like myself can go into experiance fine dining but also experiance the staffs side of the world as well.

Honestly though it was hands down the best service ive experianced in awhile. A room filled with great people, great staff and I also had learned so much.I learned sign language from the staff and the wall art... well i didnt learn enough to converse alot but enough to get me by. The cool thing is the servers only speak sign language and you have cheat sheets with signs at your table which allows you to communicate with your server. It was amazing and it really gets you in understanding what life is like on their side.

I'm sure they got frustrated because my hand and eye coordination isn't the best, but kathy and I felt pretty confidant at the end of the meal. We kept practicing what we learned the whole way home. I highly recommend this place to anyone who loves learning new things and loves to pig out because the food was delicious and the experiance was memorable.

Girls night just kathy and I was a fu, an eventful night filled with laughs, love and experiance. 

The appetizers = amazing 

Below is my bestfriend  kathy :) she is an awesome date partner! 

Home sweet home.

I have finally had a few days off from my crazy toronto life, and boy was it needed. I went back to cambridge to visit my lovely family and friends it was for sure a breathe of fresh air. As said before my bestfriend got engaged and I finally got to officially congratulate her on this big step in her life. I felt like a kid meeting Santa for the first time. That is exactly how excited I was when I saw her and the beautiful ring on her finger.

I got some visits from my closest of friends which felt amazing because they made time in their busy lives to see me and say a quick hello and catch up. So thank you lovely friends for spreading love towards me.  I also got to spend beautiful memorable moments with my little sister.  We never were the closest living together but once I moved a bond built and it's the best bond I could have ever asked for, but secretly I can't wait till she is older so we can be that much closer.

Having good friends and family around is the best feeling. Surround yourself with love and happiness it will make your life  that much better.

Now back to to reality in the toronto city in which I call my home away from home.

Love Toronto and it's busy days but it's good to take a step back and breathe.

I hear wedding bells.

No its not me with the wedding bells are coming for,that day will come soon enough I'm sure. For now the news of love are out for my best friend in the whole world Kathy aka thedaintykat and her partner in crime Brent. Who got purposed to last weekend, She is finally a FIANCE to an awesome guy who I am quite fond of, he is a real catch and great guy who makes her smile and keeps her grounded. They are both such an adorable and inlove couple that it makes you want to yell " GET A ROOM!!" I mean this in the most loving way :)

They have been together for 5 years and I've known her for about two of those many years. Her and I just recently clicked to being the best of friends, sisters, hubba & Bubba and mother daughter hahahaha.  She is my mom the responsible one who teaches me the good and the bad. Kathy is a kind soul who deserves the happiest of happiest engagements and wedding day. I am so glad to be apart of this journey with her and her hubby. To anyone who knows her personally or even just a stranger that just meets her will know this woman has talks your ears off about wanting to get a ring on her finger not for the sake of the ring but for the sake of wanting to have a man like brent to be her forever and always.The day has come finally and i have nothing but butterflys and tears of joy for her. But Now what shall we talk about since you engaged ?

let the savings and tears of joy begin. Let's get you married kathy to the man of your dreams.

Love you both.

Blooper bloopers in my everyday life.

While on the subway today while people watching, yes I people watch. I mean it in a way wherw I find it so interesting how everyone lives their own lives and we all go on our ways to different activities that make us who we are everyday, but yet we are all living in the same city with such similarities. Crazy isn't it? off topic but needed to share my train of thought.

Well .... while people watching on my way home I had a light bulb moment! I figured since I am such an entertainment, well kinda. Since I do,do my fare share of stupid things in my everyday life and  I Crack up alone about them, why not entertain my readers on my "blooper" moments In my life.

Introducing  blooper one of the many.. a few nights ago something happened yet again but this time it made me laugh a little harder then usual. I am a restless sleeper, I was partically asleep and turned over to my right shoulder and I  opened my eyes to find my boyfriend just waking up. As he  glanced over at me,I kid you not I jump in fear with a gasp of air as though someone as scared the living day lights out of me. I manage to fall back asleep every time but this time when waking up I laughed pretty hard because I thought to myself my poor boyfriend probably thinks I don't like him.

But the case is I just haven't gotten use to being on my own yet that I sometimes dream that I still live with my family in my old teenage room.  So when seeing him in my bed when  waking out of a dream like that it is a SHOCK!

So Hilarious that I continue to have a good laugh of this blooper and it happened about 3 nights ago.

Welcome to my blooper moments in my life.

Nothing Gold can Stay.

Ever wake up in those moods were you don't want to get out of bed, or talk to anyone?

 Not saying that you're wake up in a bad mood but you wake up in such blissful peace that you don't want anyone or anything to ruin your mood. I woke up like that today I have been in bed for a few hours now and I have no motivation to move. Unfortunately for me I have this thing called "a job" and it requires me to go in to work and make money so that I can afford this bed that I have in my place where I choose to sleep in and not want to get out of.

Why do beds have to be so comfortable? honestly I don't know anyone that sleeps and says damn I cannot wait to get out of bed ? sleeping isn't a chore for me that is for sure I enjoy my sleep, actually I find that I enjoy my sleep a lot more when I'm about to wake up. I usually  think to myself just a few more minutes, close my eyes prepare myself to get my feet on the floor, stretch and open my eyes to the sunlight. In fact those few more minutes are probably the best few more minutes in my sleeping pattern.

I Wright this all while I am in bed with a cup of tea bundled up in the most amount of clothing anyone could wear and two blankets. I swear I am not sick I'm just having one of those wrap me up so warm stay in bed forever moods.  Window wide open so I can feel the breeze against my face like I am actually outside, and only hearing the noise of the honking cars and sirens passing by. I have been like this for hours and I wish my day could end like this today.

One of those days with one of those moods, blissful peace. What's the term "Nothing gold can stay" Pony boy you understand the struggles of having to get out of bed.